Adi Suyash recounts this experience in the introduction to his book Threads of Transcendence, describing the moment when he was about to leave his body.

“When I experienced the ultimate truth through intense Śaktipāta from Śiva, I wanted to leave the physical body because the attachment to the body had dissolved. It was like when an orange ripens; it naturally starts detaching from its peel. I felt the same way. My body felt like a loose, flowing piece of cloth that could fall off at any moment. At that time, I had no desire to preach this truth because why bother? Someone’s life won’t change by hearing it; they will continue to live as they are. They might listen, find temporary peace and happiness, only to return to the same cycle of crying, anger, greed, and jealousy. Out of millions, perhaps one person might find this knowledge helpful, while the rest will continue their usual way. Even preaching to that one person would be futile because if they can understand me, they are already close to enlightenment and don’t need my help; they will find their way on their own, sooner or later. That’s why I wanted to leave the body.

However, every time I tried to do so, I felt as if something were holding me back, preventing me from leaving. I would hear voices screaming and crying at me, as if numerous souls were clinging to me, relying on me with expectations. Maybe that’s why I occasionally make an effort now. Therefore, sometimes, I describe myself as a creator of lies — lies that can reveal the truth to you. Because the truth cannot be expressed in words, whatever I say about the truth is a lie, an illusion. However, these illusions might uncover the truth for you, much like someone throwing water on you in a dream. It’s a dream, a lie, but it can wake you up to the truth.”

— Adi Suyash